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Day 4 of being in Boston

Today I got up and grabbed lunch at one of my favorite restaurants in Boston - Charley’s on Newbury Street.

I had been dreaming of getting their bread bowl beef stew like all day. And then…when I got there…nada….
I will survive. *sigh*

So I ended up getting a burger instead. Have to say - not my favorite. It had some weird kind of cheese on it that made it taste a little bitter. And it made me feel a little bitter. No beef stew…grrr…

After lunch I went to Francesca’s in the South End - another of my old favorite hangouts - and did some work there by “borrowing” someone’s Wi-Fi. Shhhhh…

I was nice to sit and people watch and work and get hit on by a VERY VERY CUTE barista boy. Yes, sir, I’ll have another coffee
Let’s just say I almost didn’t make it back to James’ apartment with my bladder intact. It’s one of those times where you totally think you are fine and walk out of the place you are reading or eating and as soon as that cold breeze catches you you’re like - oh jesus I have to pee…!

I know you know what I mean so don’t pretend like you don’t!!

Later on I met up with James in Copley Square where he said he had a “surprise” for me. Yay - I like surprises!

My “surprise” ended up being an old friend I had fallen out of touch with (well, more like he had fallen out of touch with me). We were going to have drinks and maybe dinner.

Now this is one of those situations where you come face to face with someone who stopped talking to you for some reason but never told you why. After multiple attempts to get in touch with them to figure out if it was because you had moved out of state or maybe you had kissed someone they were interested or maybe you said something when you were drunk…and you get little or no response - you let go. It’s sad - but it happens. Good friend - but no longer.

So now you are face to face with them and you are thinking, “cool, maybe we can just move past it all and catch up from where we left off!” You get excited you might get a good friend back in your life.

Yeah….not so much.

One word…A W K W A R D!

I don’t think I’ve met someone so not interested in anything to do with me. I asked about 30 questions about his life…what are you up to?….how is the job?….what have you been doing over the past 5 years?….and he asked…hmmmm…ZERO (0) NADA NO questions about me at all.

Let’s just say this is one bitch who is good at making his point clear - he don’t care about me much! hahaha

But writing this now makes me realize one fundamental change that has occurred in my thinking over the past 5 years. Before I would be upset and try to make things right. Now I realize that the issue isn’t with me and it’s not anything I can or would want to fix. You can’t change people - only they can change themselves.

And if he doesn’t like me for some reason and won’t tell me there is nothing I can do about it. He’ll tell me when he wants to. Sure, it makes me a little sad. But life isn’t always rainbows. And I’m not going to walk around with a frown on my face because someone doesn’t like me. I’m going to smile because someone does!

Someone once wrote in my high school yearbook “60 seconds of sadness is one minute of missed hapiness.” I stopped wasting my minutes years ago
ANYWAY…after a few drinks I decided I was wasting happy minutes! hahaha So I told everyone I was going back to James’ to do some work before we headed out to Club Cafe that night. I said my goodbyes and jetted out of there…zzoooommm!

Of course, once I got in and started doing work I never left! So no Club Cafe for me. At least I got my one fix for the trip.

Tomorrow I’m interviewing two people - the president of a student group and a state senator. How friggin’ exciting!

Then it’s off to PTown! YAY! Seriously - can’t wait!